Here We Are Again

And here I find myself at the end of another year. How the time has flown by! And my, how my circumstances have improved since this time last year.

Me on NYE last year: Too fucking sick, mentally and physically, to celebrate, and in an unhappy relationship. This relationship ended a few days into 2010 and since then things have only gone uphill. Well there were a few bumps.... but it's been a good year.

I remember sending him an mp3 of AFP's "Another Year." meaning that I might consider getting back with him in another year when I had, you know, sorted myself out and shit.

FUCK THAT.

Everything is so good now.

So. I have three goals for 2011.

1. Graduate twice. Get first class honours.
2. Lose 15 kg
3. Find something to do in 2012 that is either Not Studying or Not In New Zealand and preferably both.

And my New Years Resolution should help me achieve all of these goals. It's the same as it always is, of course:

Be Good At Life

Here's to Life. Chairs mate eigh. Bring on 2011 baby!

Junkie

This is what I do when I am meant to be working.

I see an expression I like and get the wrong sorts of ideas, i.e. ones that rhyme but aren't actually useful for my project. (I also spend far too much time playing with the magnetic poetry on the fridge...)

This one was "oil addiction."

I'm trippin' again
Feel that rush in my veins
I'm addicted

But I don't wanna be high
No I don't wanna fly
So conflicted

My behaviour gives me cause for reflectin
I try to stick to green, all that other shit I'm rejectin
Even when I say I'm clean I know you're suspectin
And you're right, coz I never stopped injectin

Money into the economy
A fix will never come for free
Capitalist society
Bring your cash and follow me

I always want just one more hit
Pay for it with cash, eftpos or credit
I'll sell my body to fuel my fuel habit
Anything you want baby you can have it

When I say I need junk I don't mean drugs
I mean clothes and toys and gadgets and mugs
I'm on a speed high then I'm in my car
Feeling that rush as I drive so fucking fast

Just How I Have Been Feeling Lately

My life is so full of eternal fail and there are so many things that are not quite right or are in fact completely wrong.

I am resentful of so many things and I think that society is stupid and we are doomed and ra ra ra ra you get the gist.

And yet I can't help but be absolutely delighted with every moment.

I am filled with this strange happiness that nothing can ruin.

Has someone been slipping drugs into the drinking water?????